Thursday, February 15, 2018


By: Cindy Feeman

Have you ever made the statement... "Lead me Lord I'll follow?"
I know I have many many times.. I have prayed, I'm willing to do whatever you want me to do. And at times He has required that of me. For the most part I have done that. I have done things I never thought I could or would. I have gotten out of my comfort zone at times. Or so I thought that was out of my comfort zone... but was it??? I have done what He asked and had gotten comfortable in my abilities to do what He asked. BUT.......

At this time in my life God has placed me in a very uncomfortable place in this journey. I have endured ailments for over 2 years that have hindered me in working for the Lord like I used to. I did have some health problems but I was able to do most of what I wanted. I am now unable to walk without a walker or cane, I have had multiple infections in my leg and generalized weakness. I know that God is my healer for I have experienced his healing touch many times. But at this time in my life He has chosen not to. (So Far)

I have prayed and searched scriptures, I have made my petitions known to God. What I wanted from Him. I have been anointed numerous times and have felt Him touch me... but no healing. I want to do all the things I could before. I don't want assistance from people or equipment. Lord just let me go back to doing what I could before. I know you are able to do that!

One day a few months back as I was making my petitions known to God again... He spoke to me and said... Did you ever think that isn't what I want for you? Maybe I have something new for you to do. I'll be honest I did not like that statement. I have to say it knocked me for a loop and I pouted all day!

It was and is difficult for me to pray, "Lord, whatever you want me to do, I will do it." I am praying more and asking Him to lead me in His word to find His will in my life.

Through out all of our lives we will go through some very trying times, but it's all in His plan... He will lead us where He wants us to be and it is for a reason and maybe for a season... but He is in control.

I don't know what 2018 will hold for me and what tomorrow will even bring, but I'll continue on this journey and see what lies ahead. God may have something new for me again... but I can honestly say now (without pouting) "Where He leads me I will follow"... cause I know He's holding my hand!

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